Blood Tears and Ink

Ok, so I'm trying to write the 'Interests' section of a resume to Oklahoma Summer Arts Institute, but I was trying to find the best way to describe cosplay without sounding stupid, so I did a google define search and it came up with the wiki page for cosplay. Curious, I decide to read the article, and this was part of the page.

'Cosplaying as characters of the opposite sex is called "crossplay", and cosplaying as characters who dress as the opposite sex is called "cross-dressing". The main reason that people do “crossplay” or “cross-dressing” is because in anime there is an abundance of bishounen (beautiful youths), who are very attractive and feminine-looking male characters.[5] Therefore, in the reality, females can often act as these characters better than the males. “Crossplay” and “cross-dressing” often coincide, but since some Japanese characters cross-dress to start with, it is possible to do one without the other.

For example, a female cosplayer cosplaying as a male character would be cross-dressing and crossplaying. However, a female cosplayer dressing as someone like Mana (male artist from the Visual Kei band Malice Mizer known for dressing in female clothes) would be crossplaying, but not cross-dressing; and a male cosplayer also cosplaying as Mana would be cross-dressing, but not crossplaying.' --Wikipedia Cosplay article

As a... cross-dressing cross-player (???) for some reason these paragraphs made me kind of happy, as I always have the hardest time defining it to the uninitiated. Specifically, when describing my Lolita-style Allen Walker cosplay (aka-- a girl dressed as a boy dressed as a girl= many weird looks).

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Yay crossplayers! I just wanted to share this well written definition for something so awkward as crossplay!

PS--I still have no clue how to describe cosplay on here without sounding like a nut job to any 'normal' human being. x_x;; eeeeeehhh....

Beloved Angelus


Striking…

“Allen,” breathed Lavi, almost reverently as if in prayer as his hands ghosted over tender flesh tinged a soft pink. He kissed the pale brow and nuzzled against the ghostly locks…

Dazzling…

Lavi almost couldn’t stand to look upon the sight before him. Light almost seemed to pour from the small form, dazzling him with a fire that simmered within grey eyes, and burned its way across cool flesh…

Beautiful…

Allen was… stunning. Exotic in a way never known or seen—an Albino angel sent to walk the earth…

Heartbreaking…

Lavi kissed away the tears that leaked out of stormy eyes. His heart beat faster than a hummingbird’s wings… a heart that shouldn’t exist. It was a heart that he had thought long gone, but had become painfully aware of when he had believed the other dead. This heart… it had stopped then. When Allen had returned, he had sworn…

He’d never let his Heart break again… Allen would never Fall again.

World shattering…

He was meant to be a Bookman. It was his life… his entire world. A world that had been slowly shattering since the day he had met Allen. And now with every touch, with every breath he breathed and every sigh they shared… it was being blasted wide apart.

Destroyer of Time…

It was a heady feeling… this powerful creature, the ‘Destroyer of Time’, bending to his every touch… He wondered if perhaps the world would stop spinning, and that time could cease to exist and they would be trapped in this moment, together for all eternity…

Chosen of the 14th…

Shadow of the Musician he may be… Lavi didn’t completely understand it himself. But he couldn’t help but wonder if the melodious tune of the arc weren’t derived from the beats of Allen’s heart, the beauty in every movement, and the joy in every cry of ecstasy…

God’s Favored Child…

‘Most Blessed… God’s Favored Child…’ Bookman had many terms for it, and for him. But Lavi thought, as they both cried out to the heavens in their final moments, that perhaps Allen wasn’t the blessed one… perhaps he was the blessing sent to the rest of them. To Lavi, Allen would always be his…

Beloved Angelus…




A/N: Umm… yeah… I’ve recently become obsessed with these two… and I felt my muse lurking somewhere in my mind tonight, so I basically put myself into a bit of a writing trance and voila! Hopefully someone out there likes it enough to drop a comment or two.

Livejournal A/N: I posted this on ff.net about a week ago. It's my first DGM fic as well as my first attempt at Laven, so hopefully it turned out fairly well. Either way, I'm open to constructive criticism, so leave a comment if you have the time.

yeah... I haven't been on lj in a while... mostly because i didn't know anyone on here and I've always sucked at keeping up journal entries... I love journals, just not having to remember to update the darn things.

But I figured I ought to post something now that I'm trying to add some friends from the DGM meme. A special note of thanks to wolfram003 for posting the link into her post.

Hmmm... about me... I'm a 21 year old otaku from Oklhoma (Tulsa area) and I work 40 hrs a week at Arby's as crew. When I'm not working you can usually find me either sleeping, online, watching anime, reading manga, cleaning house, or attending/getting ready for W.O.K. (my anime club). I help run our small club of oddballs and most anime viewings are held at my house as I am the only person with the set up needed-- my desktop is hooked up to my tv, so we can watch downloads, legit copies, or view things online.

I graduated in the the 20% of my class (and probably school) and I was one of the top testers for the school as well (I think the admin of my high school cried when my class left as we were the ones whose grades and test scores made the rest of the school look good). I then went to OU for a year, had an emotional breakdown, screwed up real bad with my grades and decided to take a couple semesters off. Now I'm hoping to make it to NSU by the spring semester.

My biggest obsession at the moment is... ::drumroll:: ... D. Gray-Man! Allen is simply glompable, Lavi is just... Lavi ::smiles:: Kanda kinda reminds me of Sasuke from Naruto, though not quite as annoying, and Komui makes my heart both purr and break. Most of the time I either want to slap him or give him a hug.

My pet project over the next couple months is perfecting my Allen Walker cosplay and making Allen's outfit from the artwork on the 21st Night from the manga (Vol. 3). My mom used to be a performing clown for a church organization so she's going to teach me the basics of things like juggling and balloon animals and such. Hopefully I'll be able to have it down before Izumicon so I can perform at the DGM photoshoot. I'm also roping everyone around me into playing poker with me so I can get some practice in.

If you can't tell, I REALLY like cosplaying... and Allen is just so much fun to work with!

I'm a huge crossover fanfiction junkie. I can come up with a crossover for just about anything if I know a little about them (as a side note-- the Arc makes it really easy to cross DGM with anything).

I'm a yaoi fangirl... though not one of the crazy ones that you'd want to shoot because to always say and do stupid stuff... like running around a con hitting people with yaoi paddles with no warning. I can't believe those people did that... Anyway... I've been reading yaoi fanfiction since I was about 13 (Harry/Severus) and so I really can't help being able to pair off just about every male character... but I usually try to keep my fangirliness in check. That being said...

<3 <3 <3 <3 LAVI/ALLEN ALL THE WAY BABY!!! WOOT!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

Umm... I think that's all that I can really say about me. If anyone wants to get to know me any better, just send me messages or comments. And sorry about the craptastic-ness of my lj, I wish I could make it as pretty as some others... thanks for reading my random ramblings!

The Wedding Picture

There they stood in their wedding picture. Her gown was an elegant yet simple affair that flowed like silk from sloped shoulders to a floor of deep night. Her hair fell around her like a shower of gold and jeweled studs could be seen glittering amongst the tresses. But the most beautiful thing she had adorned for the occasion was her smile, which seemed to shine with more light than the moon to her back. And this light was being poured over the young gentleman in her arms.

He was a strapping lad of maybe 25, dressed for the moment in a dark suit which stood in contrast to his young bride’s dress of snowy white. He had an arm slung loosely around her waist, holding her near. And though his smile was more demure than that of his wife, his adoring gaze as he looked down upon her, encompassing all that she was and would be to him, was nothing short of heart stopping.

It was the perfect moment. A complete moment. A moment for them, and them alone. A moment where they could proclaim to the world ‘We are one.’

But as she felt a hand slip into her own and give a comforting pressure, she knew that it was a moment she would never have. For as much as the world preached that love was a gift from god, it was also a cold truth that it judged that not all love was equal and worthy, no matter how true a love it was.

So she turned away from her world of dreams reflected in a photographer’s ad and back towards her reality, found in soft hazel eyes and a light cotton dress.

She smiled. She may never be able to experience the happy moment of marriage due to the exclusionary judgment of those who had forgotten that she was human as well, and was just as deserving of happiness as they, but she could still find that moment of oneness in her lover, her partner, and her other half’s eyes.


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As you can no doubt tell, I am pro-gay marriage. My reason-- as far as I'm concerned, the moment that the government made it where you could go down to the courthouse to get what once required a church service, they moved marriage out of the realm of the transcendent and into that of the material through the judicial system. And all judicial services should be open to all US citizens, both straight and gay. Otherwise it is an unequal system.

Title: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 7 Confrontations
Fandoms: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Ed's foul mouth, shounen-ai, RoyxEd

Summary:When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd


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NEWS FLASH!!! I now have a myspace! If anyone wants to look me up on there, feel free to. It has all my info and I will probably write stuff up on my blog as well as keep an update on the progress of my stories. So if you want to try and harass me directly to update, try and catch sneak peaks, or just wanna chat up a fellow writer, come and check me out. Also, I have a playlist up on my profile where you can listen to the songs that either a) relate to Arches and Gates, b) fma in general (I have some of the songs from the anime up), or c) songs I've found from other fics or vids that I think relate well to fma in one way or another. And if anyone is a fan of Nike Femme’s fic 'Full Circle' (If you like beautifully written RoyEd you will love it. It’s better written than some published books.) you can find the songs that she used in her fic there as well as a pic with a quote from her story in my pictures. Again, feel free to stop by any time just to message me, add on a friend, ask me questions, enjoy my playlist (which will probably continue to grow), or whatever. Here’s the URL: http://www.myspace.com/eds_travellog

Title: Memoria et Dolere
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: About pg-13 range maybe
Summary: Rewrite of Harry and Snape's duel at the end of HPB. Very different ending... dark Harry, tortured Snape.

Author's note: The beginning is an excerpt from HPB. The rest after that is my own writing. Understand that it was mostly therapeutic, written shortly after I finished reading the book. I now have different theories on why Snape killed Dumbledore. However, if you like dark stuff, you may like this.
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WoW... I really didn't recognize this at first, even though it was in my own computer. I thought that maybe I had copy and pasted it from somewhere on the web to read at a later date some time in the past and just forgot about it. But after thinking about it I finally realized that yes I *did* write this sad little drabble. For the record, I feel much better now compared to how I was when I wrote this. And I decided to keep the title I had given it, even though I have no clue why I did.



Sleeping-

Splish, splash…

Splish, splash…

Edward Elric walked barefoot across the immaculate lawns of Central Headquarters, gardens of brightly colored flowers to either side of him, his abandoned shoes dangling from his hands. But it was the rain drops and the thunder and lightning above that paid testament to his mood.

He had gone to where they had arranged to meet- a small, private pub a short walk from the dorms where Ed was staying. Ed had gone, but he had never shown up. Three and a half hours he had waited, and his lover had never come. He had been stood up. Even when Hawkeye forced the Colonel to stay late to finish papers, she only did so until about 8:30, when she was too tired herself to force him to do anything. That left plenty of time for him to make it. But he hadn’t.

“It was probably the damn rain,” said Ed aloud to himself. “Roy hates the rain…”

'But if he had *really* wanted to come, if he *really* wanted to be with you, then he would have still come…'

This thought saddened him greatly, because he knew it was right. There was a time when Roy would brave storm and flurry to meet Ed somewhere. This observation of course, invited analyses of what had changed…

“A year and a half- it’s been a year and a half since we first got together. And instead of getting better over time, it seems to have gotten worse,” said Ed, still talking aloud to himself. “At first, he respected me, I knew it. But now… I don’t know…” Ed rubbed his hands over his face. When he removed them, he realized he had come up on the Pitmill Fountain, lit up from under the water, casting a glittery glow over everything in the ring of stone that surrounded it. Ed walked up to the fountain, looking into it’s depths, as if trying to scry the secrets of life.

“Not once has he said that he loves me. He seems to always skirt around it when it comes up. Oh sure, I’ve said it, but never him,” said Ed closing in on himself. He hung his head, “I’m such a fool…” With that Ed turned and continued down the lawn towards the dorm buildings.

Disclaimer: I don’t own Roy or Ed. I do however own a State Alchemist’s watch.


Seen


Roy glanced over to his side as waited for the walk signal to change over on his way home from work. Most of those in the military headquarters would have expected to see some exotic, scantily clad female standing beside the renowned pervert. But no- it was Edward Elric who occupied that place. And currently said short alchemist was staring at the people in the cars that passed him by. One kind looking lady smiled as she looked back at him.

“Why do you watch for the people in the cars? Do you expect to see someone?” asked Roy off handedly.

“No. It’s just… the world’s too rushed. Over half the time people aren’t even aware of each other. Even when they stand face to face they don’t see each other, not really. When I look at the people in the cars, I can’t help but wonder if we’ve ever passed on the sidewalk, a mere few inches from one another. Or I wonder if we had met anywhere, would we have become friends? What’s their life like? What have they seen? Is their life any better or worse than my own? What are they thinking at that very moment? Could it be anything like my own thoughts? Maybe we share similar experiences and will never know that we are kindred spirits. Perhaps we met in a past life. I like to staop and think about it, how in the end, we’re all connected by our thought and reasoning abilities and by life in general. In the end, we’re not so different. We’re both just trying to live our lives as best as we can. And just sometimes, it’s those people you glance in that one moment who actually see you. Everyone else may look through you, but that one person- that person you may never see again- for that split second, they can see you. And it gives me hope that maybe- just maybe- there’s still hope for us, as human beings. Because as long as we can still see each other, there is still hope.

That’s why I look at the people in the cars.”

Roy made sure after that to be careful when asking off handed questions.

Title: Gate Exchange
Chapter: One-shot
Fandom: Full Metal Alchemist
Rating: Probably T, but w/ really bad language
Summary: Edward ends up at the Gate again. They discuss his Exchange. Completely crackish and wrote at 3 am. A one shot at the moment, but if enough people like the idea I may continue it. All types of criticism welcome. Bad language, but that's it.

A/N: I reeeealy have no excuse other than to say that this hit me at like 3 am. I was braindeaad and bored, and a couple of these lines came to me during work and made me laugh and there was no way of working them into what I was already writing. If enough people find this funny I may continue it as a drabble collection of people (not always Ed) coming to the Gate. Leave me a review telling me what you think, good or ill. I know it’s not great but it’s my first attempt at something so crackish. If I didn’t know any better I’d think I was on crack when I wrote it. But no, just sleep deprivation.
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Title: Goodbye
Chapter: One-shot
Fandom: Full Metal Alchemist
Rating: PG--PG-13 (I'm bad at rating these things. Probably b/c I've been watching R movies since I was 9.)
Warnings: Mild cussing (typical Ed), shounen-ai, future character death
Summary: Ed is diagnosed with the disease that killed his mother and Roy finds out. RoyEd Currently a one shot w multiple chapters pending.

Author’s note: As of now, this story is a one shot. Tell me what you think of it and I may continue it a bit.
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Title: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 6 Home Sweet Home
Fandom: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Language, shounen-ai, RoyxEd
Summary: When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd

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Title: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 5 Explanations Pt. 2
Fandoms: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Ed's foul mouth, shounen-ai, RoyxEd

Summary:When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd

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Title: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 5 Explanations Pt. 1
Fandoms: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Ed's foul mouth, shounen-ai, RoyxEd

Summary:When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd


Important: Concerning the story, I have a few things to say/ask- 1) do you people want a happy ending or a bitter sweet ending? It could go either way with this story. Keep in mind there will likely be a sequel, so the ‘ending’ isn’t really the end, but it will determine some aspects of the next story (for the record, I’ve already had three votes so far- ‘Roy’ voted for bittersweet while her two dogs voted for happy). 2) I’ve recently had a few plot points fall into place and, if I may say so, it is absolutely brilliant. I have yet to see anything like it in the stories on the site. So I’m bubbling with excitement over it, as my boyfriend could tell you (kiss!kiss!love!love! Thanks for listening to me ramble!)

Thanks be to Roy for inspiring the ‘tongue’ joke…

And as always… I LOVE YOU ROY!!!


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itle: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 4 The Trio
Fandoms: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Ed's foul mouth, shounen-ai, RoyxEd

Summary:When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd


This chapter is dedicated to my rather annoyed best friend ‘Roy’ who helps to ‘inspire’ my writings (lol). No really *she* does… And I owe her a terrible apology for constantly tempting her with sneak peaks at some of the more juicy moments of the story, such as Roy and Ed’s first ‘encounter’, which effectively takes the suspense out of the wait in the story. Anywho, thanks for the inspiration points from the other night. Though none are in the story (yet) I will make sure to make mention of them and you in the chapters that they appear in. But I’m afraid to say, that may be a while of a wait.

Now on with the chapter!

Love, ‘Ed’

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Title: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 3 Observations and Conversations
Fandoms: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Ed's foul mouth, shounen-ai, RoyxEd

Summary:When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd

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Title: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 2 Enter the Flame Alchemist
Fandoms: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Ed's foul mouth, shounen-ai, RoyxEd

Summary:When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd

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itle: Arches and Gates
Chapter: Ch. 1 Enter the Full Metal Alchemist
Fandoms: Full Metal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: T
Warnings: Ed's foul mouth, shounen-ai, RoyxEd

Summary:When Roy joined Ed in his trip through the Gate neither expected to live, let alone be immediately pushed into battle for a world opposite to their own! But there's a much greater battle on the horizon, one of cosmic scale... HPFMA RoyEd


- - Spoilers in story for the end of HP: OotP as well as HBP and the end of the Full Metal Alchemist Anime series as well as other points in the canon story - -

Author’s note: For this chapter some things are the same, others are different. The first excerpt is straight from OotP, no changes. The first part of the Full Metal Alchemist excerpt is basically what happened during part of the last episode of the anime series. The biggest change is with Roy- for the purposes of this story, he is not ambushed by Archer outside of the Fuhrer’s house and he knew where Edward had gone. Let’s say that Ed explained it all to him on the car ride. Second- yes I know there was more to Bellatrix’s escape from the atrium to the Hall of Doors, but frankly I didn’t feel like writing all that out so I kinda skipped it. Actually, I forgot how much more there was but really don’t feel like rewriting that section just for something so minor.

Important: This A/N is up-to-date as of 01-07-07—Several parts of this story have been edited. If you’ve read it before, you might want to give it a scan over again. Some parts are ones I wasn’t happy with to begin with and wanted to change, others were gaps in logic that I felt the need to change. In fact, the other day I was rereading the end of HP: OotP and I realized just how much I had forgotten. When I did, I was left staring at the book in an excellent imitation of the Home Alone scream pose. So here I am left with gaps in logic and story that I’m trying to consolidate and work in. Sure I could play the AU card, but I’d really like to keep it as close as possible to the story line, at least at this point. So please forgive me if something is either changed or ‘under construction’ so to speak. And before you say anything—yes Roy uses Japanese in ch. 2. It is explained in an a/n and an explanation will be worked in later. Really, just understand that this is fanfiction and I will not be receiving any pay for this, so the occasional lapse in logic is to be expected. I just hope you enjoy the story nevertheless.

I OUGHT TO ALSO WARN YOU NOW- THIS *IS* A ROYXED. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT, THEN DON’T READ IT.

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